closing time

I decided to stop writing this blog for a few reasons - #1 being time.
The second being that I found I need more of a support type system for my goals and the challenges I am facing trying to reach them. More of a conversation I guess, rather than me just complaining about this and that.

so enjoy the day, and enjoy a piece of cake, once in a while.

baby steps

I have had to really stop and take a look at my eating habits. I get frustated that my clothes don't seem to be getting any looser, even though I work out alot. I needed to stop weighing myself because it was aggravating me that the magic number I thought should show up wasn't making an appearance.

My truth was that I was eating alot more than my body needed. A sleeve of Ritz crackers throughout the day, a box of graham crackers. Cheese, love that cheese. Even though my meals were healthy, the crap that I filled inbetween the snacks and meals wasn't helping me. Could that be why I seem to be getting sick alot lately? Could be. Overloading your system doesn't allow your body to do it's job, a job that I think that it's pretty good with under good circumstances.

So, even though I didn't want to "diet" and I try to eat clean most of the time, I really needed to buckle down and pay some attention to what I was fueling myself with.

baby steps.

again....

It is difficult sometimes to get online even to check emails. But it is funny to me that the last post had me complaining about being sick, and lo and behold I am sick yet again. Trying to eat clean, but obviously working out is out of the question. I am really missing Spinning class, so hopefully by Mon or Tues I'll be back on the bike.

Funny though, that when we are feeling our worst we seem to crave the most horrible-for-you-foods. Like weird yellow colored condensed soup, or, just a day of eating toast. Not so clean, but whatever gets you through.

sick again

I seem to have fell with a cold, again. I don't get why I keep getting sick, but whatever. The initial feeling is to grab the most comfort food that I could fit in one hand and jump under the covers, but obviously with two toddlers running around the house, I could get in trouble for that. So, I am keeping some hot water on the stove for some quick tea through the day and will just focus on the whole "food is fuel" aspect of it all.

the better the fuel, the quicker my body can heal.....

growing up

I have to be honest and admit that stepping away from the scale is quite freeing. I have automatically began to pay more attention to my hunger and how good my workouts feel. No guilt when I did eat my chocolaty-almond Dove bar this afternoon, just a big guzzle of water and a feeling of satisfaction.



One of the problems that I did encounter when always focusing on that "magical number" was that my expectations of what I thought was my personal goal were completely off track. I look at my favorite fitness magazines and I see these strong, beautiful women, who eat clean all the time and make a living off of their looks. Perhaps not so realistic a goal for me. Then today I realize that in focusing on a number, I have set myself for failure. I will never weigh 115 lbs. I have muscle, strong arms to hold my little( uh, big ) babies. I have strong legs to walk endlessly around the yard, exploring every nook and cranny that little Sarah can find.

I need to begin to look in the mirror and celebrate what I see, not pick apart what looks "wrong".

goodbye scale

A little experiment if you will. A month to not focus on that dreaded number beaming up at me on the scale. A month to focus on eating clean, mindfully, and no worries. I didn't even weigh myself this morning.

There are those days we wake up and feel great. We eat well, work out and then... that scale ruins it. We feel defeated. I need to let go of that for a while. I need to focus on that good feeling. Feeling good about myself, and successful in my fitness journey.

Todays goal is to eat well. Sarah woke up sick, puking. Yes I know, fun stuff. Anyway, I am determined not to get sick again this time. Need to take care of me.

where did I hide her junior mints????
kidding!